[MD] What of this Rho?

[Heather Perella]

   [Case]
> It seems there is always an oversupply of tangled
> webs of deceit. 


     I'm speculating this tangled web of deceit has to
do with a pure attachment to rocks, and to a pure
attachment to reality springing from within ones'
skull only (referring to what many of us thought/think
Micah seems to be saying, anyways...).  This pure
attachment to rocks would be 'not dq is rocks'.  The
rock would not be free unto itself, I would be stuck
on a static pattern(s).  It would not be experience of
the rock as if the very first time.  
     This girl is real, yet, she can't rise above the
pain of deceit and distraction.  So much of what she
does is smoke and mirrors.  You can talk to her, and
once the discussion gets to involved, then she'll
switch the discussion or make things up that would
make sense, but are untrue.  She'll recognize
something needs to be said to explain what's going on
with her, and she'll give very convincing arguments
such as she can't trust herself.  Yet, she plays the
victim, often.  She was a victim of rape, but she'll
play this victim role with many events now.  She's
stuck in a seemingly virtual reality.  Role-playing a
truth that is a true deception.  She can't move
forward in life.  It is sad.  This stuckness has made
her sneaky, and calculating at times.  Very dangerous
combination.  Underneath all of this victim
role-playing is a girl that is mostly aggressive, a
bully at times, but all in a sneaky, sometimes though
plainly expressed way.  A twisted world.  She'll blame
others, think others are weird and unusual, and yet,
she can't get off of shadowing and can't control
herself.  To her, her perspective is very true, yet,
sometimes she admits things aren't going right about
herself.  Very mixed up.  
     I talk with staff at the facility at times, about
how placement, the whole facility is such another
world.  It really is.  So much goes on outside of the
facility that you and me experience as real.  Inside
this facility, this institution, it is such a
controlled environment, a whole other world that even
though I'm there, I know how much different it is
outside of the place.  Yet, I'm in placement facility
experiencing its' 'weirdness', and it's not 'normal'
compared to the more uninstitutional behaviors
ritualized outside of the place.
     I go there and experience life twisted with
trouble and routines that are so different from when I
leave and experience everywhere else I go.  In
placement a hello or nicety is not usual.  Outside of
the facility strangers will say "hello" or "how are
you".  The only 'thing' I find akin to it, well maybe
three 'things', is virtual reality and non-virtual
reality, yet, as we've seen discussed here before
these virtual and non-virtual realities are closing in
on each other in similarities.  The other 'thing' I
find akin to this placement (institution) v.
out-of-placement experience is what has been thought
of as living in two worlds from the Amerindians. 
Their village life, and then their experience of the
more European influence - thus, two worlds.  Thirdly,
when I go into the woods and then turn on the TV,
radio, or I'm near a populated area, the two places
seem worlds apart.


as night and day,
SA


 
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