[MD] Everything/Nothing, or should I get a life?

[MarshaV]

At 06:14 PM 6/4/2007, you wrote:
>       [Marsha]
> > It's interesting, this 'the temperment of the
> > painter'.  I don't
> > paint to create something, I paint to experience
> > something.  Sure,
> > it's all technical challenge, but with me, it's
> > mainly about the
> > painting experience.  This holyman that I'm now
> > working with, it's
> > hard to keep my feet on the ground.  He's a shape
> > shifter, a wolf or
> > a fox.  It's like riding a bull.  He doesn't trust
> > me, and was angry
> > that I took the photo.  The music helps and it gets
>good.
>
>
>      This latter, the non-technical challenge due to
>"...it's mainly about the painting experience..." with
>you, comes across dynamic and unavoidably "...hard to
>keep [your] feet on the ground."  The photo?  This
>person that doesn't trust you?  Is a wolf a fox, and
>then "...the music helps..." you... "...the
>temperament of the painter..." is an ever-ongoing
>effort.  It never does stop.  Practice must continue.
>I heard yesterday a commentator as Jack Nicholas
>(spelling?) the golfer, when his youth nerves subsided
>and he could remain calm while playing golf.  He said
>when he was forty in 1997.  He retired from golf in
>2005, I believe.  I usually don't watch golf, but this
>was a personal story.  It was interesting.  Now, note
>the announcer asked when his "youth nerves" subsided,
>and at the age of 40.  This guy played golf most of
>his life up til now, and won many championship - and
>his temperament, his youth temperament didn't calm til
>then.  I find a need to keep practicing zazen, but for
>what end.  No end, but without it I know my
>temperament gets way out of control, so, I continue.
>
>       Sounds good.
>      Well, the rain fell again this afternoon and the
>turnips in the garden are standing tall.
>
>lovely sun now,
>SA
>
>

SA,

It's a strange language, I know.  But I think you have misinterpreted 
what I was saying.  No problem.  Painting is calming, or 
exciting.  Depends on the subject.  I do meditate, but I still can 
sometimes paint with great passion.

Marsha