[MD] Too Open?

[MarshaV]

At 06:53 AM 3/29/2008, you wrote:

>Marsha:
> > Give me a break!!!  You're anonymous! How fearless
> > are you?   I do
> > enjoy your posts, though.
>
>
>SA:  hahah.  Marsha, your correct.  The time may
>come... I'm working on something.
>        Khoo Hock Aun, thank you.  I don't want to come
>off with too much of an 'I this' and 'I that'.
>Something other than just I is what is being
>communicated, hoping it comes across this way.
>        I'll move on Marsha, but by going SA instead of
>my other name on this forum, I felt I was being more
>revealing.  Going Spiritual Adirondack is more of my
>trueness, and reveals my heart in meaning more than
>the other name.  The other name is my families name.
>Spiritual Adirondack is who I am.  It was a little
>more scary revealing myself as SA, wondering what
>people would think of this freak and schizo, this old
>way of having a name rather than plain old Joe or
>Susan.  This is where Spiritual Cougar Warrior comes
>in, but is that too primitive or however people think
>of it now-a-days.
>
>
>woods,
>SA
>


Greetings Spiritual Cougar Warrior,

To paint (or whatever it is I do) I had to play all sorts of tricks 
on myself.  It was necessary (for me) to let go of who I was.  There 
was a need to leave the walls/shell behind.  Whatever works is fine.

I seem to have two personalities.  During the day, I take care of 
business.  At night I dance.  At night I paint.  At night I fly.  At 
night I lose my filters.  I have suffered at times during the day for 
what I've said at night, but night is my realm.  In fact, my secret 
name is Night.

After morning meditation, sometimes, I can only laugh, 
"Empty.  Empty.  Empty."

 From LILA and spoken by Lila, "I'm not anybody. All these questions 
you're asking are just a waste of time. I know you're trying to find 
out what kind of a person I am but you're never going to find out 
anything because there's nothing to know."  -  This is true even if I 
ask myself the questions.

I love you SA.

Marsha





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